Walking By Faith Not Emotions

I am now convinced more than any other time in my life that God exists. This doesn't mean that I feel closer to him now, it only means I am convinced of his existence. The past few years God has seemed farther and farther away and yet the more real he appears to me and no this is not a contradiction. I have spent hours on my knees calling out to God and wondering why I haven't had the emotional spiritual experiences that so many people write and talk about.

My experience comes not from an emotional or spiritual experience at a worship or prayer services but from silence and feelings of abandonment, from conviction of sin and the word of God. I always thought that maybe there was something wrong with me and God just didn't want to help me. Why didn't I get those warm fuzzy feelings that people talk about? But now as I look back I see that God has been teaching me to walk by faith, to trust him even when I have nothing else to hold on to, it is Faith in Christ alone and nothing else. The bible says that as Christians we walk by faith and not by sight and I can tell everyone I meet confidently that my faith is not based on sight or emotional hype but on faith. Too many people have a false faith, they walk be experience and not by faith, if their emotional experiences ever stop, their hope will fade away. Another problem which is also a blessing, is God just won't leave me alone, I can't get away from him even if I try, as Psalm 103 says:

Where can I go from your spirit, where can I flee from your presence, if I go up to the heavens you are there, if I go to the depths you are there, if I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

I don't have to wonder if God is real because my experience "could" have been emotional hype, but I know because I have experienced things in life that should have caused me only to deny there is a God but it only convinced me more of his existence. I have said before "God where the hell are you" but he has said, "It doesn't matter, trust me".

04-24-2008 23:33

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